Meds

I've been trying to get off the anti-depressants. I've been completely off for a week and a half... Then last night, I start getting that creepy, desperate, completely alone feeling which I'm very familiar with. I've tried to describe it as looking straight down over the edge of a cliff.... Well, I decided that I don't want to confront that stuff right now. I started to take the Lexapro again last night. I want to figure out why I have that desperate feeling and fix it so I don't have to take meds anymore, but now is not the time. I think maybe the time to do it is when I have a tight-knit set of friends, or perhaps a relationship. When I'm going through those feelings I really need people around.